This seems to be a running theme in my life... looking to the next stage in life. I noticed it tonight when a friend told me she and her daughter are taking a sewing class together and how excited she was about it. I was jealous, thinking, "I wish Charlotte was older so we could do stuff like that together"... How absurd!! In actuality there is NO PART of me that ever wants my baby girl to grow up! Not that I want to hold her back from growing up, its just that She is my #1 and my first everything! I should be enjoying it all and soaking it in. I've always found myself saying that things will be so good when this or that happens, and as soon as whatever I'm waiting for does happen, I move onto the next thing to wait for.
When I was young, it was going to college. When I was in college, it was finding that Mr. Right And when I found him, it was marrying him.... the list goes on! When we have a baby... when she's older, when we have another, when you deploy, when you get back, when we get out, when our business takes off... the grass is always greener right??
My Mother in-law (the wisest woman I've ever met) made a point to tell Eric and I to stop looking forward into the future, and enjoy RIGHT NOW! There is so much going on that we should be enjoying instead of getting wrapped up in what's to come. Charlotte is growing and changing everyday, and if we dwell on what Eric is going to miss while he's away, we'll both be missing whats going on in front of our eyes! And even with each other, we have to be making those small efforts to enjoy right now, without thinking of what we'll be missing in the future.
I think God also tells us this. Heaven is not something to look forward to.. Its HERE... NOW! Experience it!! Live in it... Let your spirit soak it up! Especially this time of year!! For me it's good friends and good conversation. I get SO much fulfillment from my Monday nights with the girls! I know not all of them open up all the way to me specifically but I feel connected to them all and feel like I can contribute to their lives as much as the contribute to mine. That's relationship! When we were reading through our book tonight we touched upon a few "promises" God gives us as far as our emotions and things like that. In all of them I found a peace.... not in the word or the scripture they used to back it, but in how it all applied to my life and how they fit in.
Cant' wait for next week... OoOoOoOooooo Circumstances.... OoOoOoooooo :)
Maybe i should right down some quotes to keep in my pocket and whip out at appropriate... or inappropriate times! :)
When I was young, it was going to college. When I was in college, it was finding that Mr. Right And when I found him, it was marrying him.... the list goes on! When we have a baby... when she's older, when we have another, when you deploy, when you get back, when we get out, when our business takes off... the grass is always greener right??
My Mother in-law (the wisest woman I've ever met) made a point to tell Eric and I to stop looking forward into the future, and enjoy RIGHT NOW! There is so much going on that we should be enjoying instead of getting wrapped up in what's to come. Charlotte is growing and changing everyday, and if we dwell on what Eric is going to miss while he's away, we'll both be missing whats going on in front of our eyes! And even with each other, we have to be making those small efforts to enjoy right now, without thinking of what we'll be missing in the future.
I think God also tells us this. Heaven is not something to look forward to.. Its HERE... NOW! Experience it!! Live in it... Let your spirit soak it up! Especially this time of year!! For me it's good friends and good conversation. I get SO much fulfillment from my Monday nights with the girls! I know not all of them open up all the way to me specifically but I feel connected to them all and feel like I can contribute to their lives as much as the contribute to mine. That's relationship! When we were reading through our book tonight we touched upon a few "promises" God gives us as far as our emotions and things like that. In all of them I found a peace.... not in the word or the scripture they used to back it, but in how it all applied to my life and how they fit in.
Cant' wait for next week... OoOoOoOooooo Circumstances.... OoOoOoooooo :)
Maybe i should right down some quotes to keep in my pocket and whip out at appropriate... or inappropriate times! :)
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