The Reality of life is that death of the body is inevitable. Its a harsh truth but unavoidable in any case. I recently learned that a fellow graduate of MJHS 2003 passed away in a head on collision with a supposed drunk driver. It is sad enough that she was not yet even 25 and had so many things to experience here but to have that opportunity taken away by someone who was selfish enough to think, "I'm ok to drive" is almost infuriating. Now I'm a firm believer in the fact that there is something to learn from every situation, good or bad. Aside from the obvious "Don't drink and drive" I think i can certainly take from this tragedy that life is too short to be taken for granted. Be it 99 years or 25 out eternity it is a fraction of a fraction of a fraction in the big picture.
Some things I remember about Megan:
In all of our one on one encounters she was not only encouraging in everything that she said, she was also REAL. No beating around the bush, she knew what was right and she did it. I remember once at a student council function in our sophomore year we stayed with a family in Brentwood and Megan, Jenna and I stayed together. I mentioned to her that an ambition of mine was to be a massage therapist and what does she do??.. Becomes my first paying customer :) She gave me $5 to give her a back massage, and then was so encouraging telling me that I was going to do very well at it and that she would always gladly come to me for a massage :) I will honestly never forget that. I know its small and very simple but it was one way she impacted my life.
She and I also competed for a few of the same student council positions and she was a tough cookie. When it came to campaigning she was always SO professional, diplomatic, and determined. But always after the elections all of that went away and she went back to being a friend.
I remember she had a nak for drama, as in acting, And boy was she beautiful!
Its hard for me to think from the perspective of her family. There are some many friends I consider like sisters and i could not imagine losing any one of them. Or to lose a daughter, I would not recover from that.
I know her eternity is just starting and she will enjoy so much more than anything this earth could provide. But I ache for her absence here, in the lives of her family and friends. Perhaps they will find comfort in the knowing that she was always one to stand out for her faith, and is for sure hanging with the G-O-D in perfect Love.
Megan's passing has also inspired me to make "The List", you know the list of what I want to accomplish or do in my life time.
1.Be financially free, as in no boss for my family, no military no 9-5 for E, Nothing but our family free to do, go and experience what we want when we want.
2. Have as many babies as I'm given, seriously, at this point in my life I cant imagine going back on birth control ever again, not for any religious reason or anything, I just have enjoyed every stage of C's life, from the sleepless nights of snuggling with her, the her hilarious defiance and crazy fits now. I love it all and cannot wait to do it over and over again!
3. Live on a farm. I want 2 cows, a few horses, chickens, MAYBE a pig, goats, house cats, barn cats, dogs, and a big huge garden with everything from flowers to veggies to fruits too. And of course the BIG old red barn :) and the pick up truck that we always have to fix up because it never works :)
4. I am so into home birthing. I think the whole process is just amazing! I'd love to start out being a Douala and then move up to a midwife at some point. I know this will probably wait until much later in life when my own babies are big and grown and i can spend the tons of hours it take to do this.
5. We use cloth diapers and I've even made a couple of them and I think it would be so neat to take the time to make enough to supply a nicu with them.
6. I want to take my family on a tour of Europe for a few months. Drink wine Tuscany, kiss E on the top of the Eiffel tower, check the time on Big Ben, and see a bull fight in Spain, walk the stair to Anne Franks hide out, etc..
7. Someday, hopefully soon, run at least a 5K, for a good cause like the Susan G Komen foundation.
8. Build something. Maybe a Hope chest or something like that. Start to finish.
9. See all of my children accomplish THEIR dreams.
10. Go to the Olympics... to watch of course. :)
11. Take up tennis and golf.
12. Change someones life in a major way.
13. I would love to be a lactation consultant but might settle for becoming a part of the LLL instead.
14. Go to Massage Therapy school (thanks Megan) :)
15. Get back into art, I was fairly average in high school but I really enjoyed it. It made me happy.
16. And then of course continue to daily challenge my husband to better his life as well as love him as unconditionally as I can and always strive to be better for him and for our marriage and family.
That's all I can think of right now. :)
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